Mason STILL isnt here. I know that I shouldnt have gotten checked out at my last appointment because then I get all excited. A lady in my Bible Study this morning said that she walked around at 4cms for like 3 weeks! Whatever. Hopefully Mr. Mason is a lady's man and is just waiting for Amanda to get here and will make his arrival soon after. Luci waited a whole 4 hours after my mom landed to send me into labor.
Things are alright here. Im still sad, still cry all the time, and still just feel like crap. Hopefully when the hormones go back to a somewhat normal level, I have my body back, and i can start working out I'll feel better. I know that I should be able to just kick him out, but its just so sad when something that you had faith in just crumbles. I attack him everyday while he is at work over text messaging. hehe Its fun. I had Bible Study this morning, and even though its nice to get out of the house I just hate going there and pretending to be happy. I know that I could express how I feel and they would be fine with that, but its not really meant to be a counseling session for Cindy.
Luci is doing great. She has gone poopy on the toilet a couple times in the last week. I can tell when she has to go so I put her on there. She doesnt stop herself from going, which is good and loves to flush afterwards. She claps and says, "DID IT!!"
My parents have been wonderful the last few weeks. Luci and I practically live there and they never complain. Luci loves it over there so much. All my dad has to do is look at her sternly when she is doing something wrong and her little lip quivers. He, of course, feels bad and hugs her for half an hour afterwards. I have to bang my hand on the couch or physically stop her from doing something. At least she respects somebody. My dad had Devin for the day yesterday so they surprised us and came for a visit. Luci was so excited that she was trying to jump up and down, but her little legs cant leave the ground yet. She then chased Devin up and down my hallway waving her hand in his face and saying, "Hi!!!" He has alot of patience with her, which is good.
Amanda is scheduled to come in tonight. Im so excited. Hopefully she has an ok time here and doesnt get too bored. I promise that if I dont have the baby the day after she comes, then we'll go to Red Lodge or something. Just to get away. I have been wanting to go for a drive but my Jeep's tires suck. My dad told me yesterday that I can come over and get his truck when I want(ssshhh...dont tell my brother).
I really miss my sister. I feel so disconnected from her. I know that we are both busy and that we dont go for more than two days without talking, but I miss holding hands with her in the mall and wish that she could be close by to see Luci grow. Its so nice to know that Luci recognizes her in pictures and talks to her on the phone. Shes coming for a visit in June though, which will be wonderful.
Well Im rambling. I think that Im excited for Amanda to get here and the sun shining outside is nice too. We dont have 54 inches of snow like you Minnesota people. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!