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12 May 2006 @ 02:04 pm
i need some more communities on my friends list.

Does anyone have any suggestions? I never know what to search for and if they are good/active communities.

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02 May 2006 @ 10:24 am

Forgive me for not responding sooner. Mason's photo is absolutely wonderful! As soon as I received it, I turned it into my screen saver! So every day when I sit down at my computer, still in my pajamas, coffee-cup in my hands .... there's Mason to greet me good morning! He is such a sweetheart, and it has been such an honor to meet your great family, and to be a part of this important time for you. I hope we will stay in touch. Thanks again for the picture. -Pat

**Shes so sweet. I really like her. She makes me want to be a midwife even more, but I dont know if I could do it. I think that Im going to talk to her about it sometime. I just had to share, because it made my day.
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01 May 2006 @ 12:54 pm
ahhhhh....peace and quiet......
Current Mood: calmcalm
12 April 2006 @ 11:08 am
We got Mason's PKU test done about a week ago. Lastnight, his Dr. called and left a message saying that something came back abnormal. I freaked out and started crying. We brought him in this morning and it seems like he doesnt possess the traits of Maple Syrup Disease, but I have to bring him to the hospital to get blood taken anyways. He has gained a pound in 9 days, so he is now 8lb 2oz. They say that if he did have this disease then he wouldnt be gaining weight and his pee would smell like maple syrup. It doesnt. Im not too worried, but its scary when your baby might be sick. Apparently its treatable. I wouldnt be able to nurse anymore, but I would do anything to make sure he was ok.
So I have to fast him until 12. Its not that much longer. I can try to give him water in a bottle I guess, so if he gets out of hand I'll just do that. Im going at 12 to the hospital and somebody who specializes in taking blood from tiny veins is going to stick a needle in my baby. Im scared. I know that it could be 100 times worse, but a mom never wants to hear that something might be wrong with her baby. What a day.
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11 April 2006 @ 09:19 am
I need some attention. I need someone to pay attention to me because I pay attention to everyone else all day.

Mason has a belly ache today. He is so gassy. Must have been something I ate. Its only 9:20am and Im already tired.

There is a job open at Wells Fargo that I have wanted. Do I apply? I dont want to leave my babies but I want a job. I dont think that I will. Its too early. Hes only 2 weeks old.

I feel dirty. I want a shower. I want new clothes.

I want this day to be over with so that i can go to bed.

I want to be a good mom and entertain Luci instead of the TV.

I hate when I feel like this.
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05 April 2006 @ 11:18 am
Thank you Lyndsay, Geoff, and Lily for the adorable things that you sent for Mason.

The card is beautiful Lynds, you are really talented!

Thank you thank you thank you!!!
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16 March 2006 @ 01:23 pm
Mason STILL isnt here. I know that I shouldnt have gotten checked out at my last appointment because then I get all excited. A lady in my Bible Study this morning said that she walked around at 4cms for like 3 weeks! Whatever. Hopefully Mr. Mason is a lady's man and is just waiting for Amanda to get here and will make his arrival soon after. Luci waited a whole 4 hours after my mom landed to send me into labor.

Things are alright here. Im still sad, still cry all the time, and still just feel like crap. Hopefully when the hormones go back to a somewhat normal level, I have my body back, and i can start working out I'll feel better. I know that I should be able to just kick him out, but its just so sad when something that you had faith in just crumbles. I attack him everyday while he is at work over text messaging. hehe Its fun. I had Bible Study this morning, and even though its nice to get out of the house I just hate going there and pretending to be happy. I know that I could express how I feel and they would be fine with that, but its not really meant to be a counseling session for Cindy.

Luci is doing great. She has gone poopy on the toilet a couple times in the last week. I can tell when she has to go so I put her on there. She doesnt stop herself from going, which is good and loves to flush afterwards. She claps and says, "DID IT!!"

My parents have been wonderful the last few weeks. Luci and I practically live there and they never complain. Luci loves it over there so much. All my dad has to do is look at her sternly when she is doing something wrong and her little lip quivers. He, of course, feels bad and hugs her for half an hour afterwards. I have to bang my hand on the couch or physically stop her from doing something. At least she respects somebody. My dad had Devin for the day yesterday so they surprised us and came for a visit. Luci was so excited that she was trying to jump up and down, but her little legs cant leave the ground yet. She then chased Devin up and down my hallway waving her hand in his face and saying, "Hi!!!" He has alot of patience with her, which is good.

Amanda is scheduled to come in tonight. Im so excited. Hopefully she has an ok time here and doesnt get too bored. I promise that if I dont have the baby the day after she comes, then we'll go to Red Lodge or something. Just to get away. I have been wanting to go for a drive but my Jeep's tires suck. My dad told me yesterday that I can come over and get his truck when I want(ssshhh...dont tell my brother).

I really miss my sister. I feel so disconnected from her. I know that we are both busy and that we dont go for more than two days without talking, but I miss holding hands with her in the mall and wish that she could be close by to see Luci grow. Its so nice to know that Luci recognizes her in pictures and talks to her on the phone. Shes coming for a visit in June though, which will be wonderful.

Well Im rambling. I think that Im excited for Amanda to get here and the sun shining outside is nice too. We dont have 54 inches of snow like you Minnesota people. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!
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05 March 2006 @ 08:45 pm
Thanks Amanda for the paid account...AGAIN!

You are wonderful!
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03 March 2006 @ 06:52 pm

What is yours?
Explain yourself
Culinary: Wendy's JR. Cheeseburger Deluxe It seems to be a pregnancy craving!
Literary: PEOPLE I never buy them unless I have money so they are a treat for me!
Audiovisual: Grey's Anatomy George O'Malley....enough said.
Musical: "One" Mary J. Blige and U2 I love the way thier voices go together.
Celebrity: T. R. Knight Hes my new love. If only I had met him before a different George I know..hehe

Now I tag:-
17 February 2006 @ 04:58 pm
I cleaned out Lucis closet today. I separated her old clothes into a pile for my cousin and a pile for church. Then I got Masons clothes together to wash this weekend at my dads. I have the carseat cover to clean and his bathtub to scrub. I have a whole list of stuff that I want to get done, but Im finding that Im not as strong/energetic as I think I am. I am now really dizzy, tired, have a backache, and can barely keep my eyes open. How I will manage taking care of two kids, God only knows.
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